im nobody. i have decent look, though sometime i dress like a gay guy. i have 3 pierce on my ears. do i look gay with that piercing?
who am i? urgh..
this is what i always do when i m stuck by this so-called love thing. im afraid to be loved and to love again.
my first experience, i handle it badly. i damaged myself terribly.
i lose his love. and it was all my fault.
the more i dig about this mr Y, the more i feel like i dont deserve him. ah, its not that we r going to end up being a partner or what. but i have this strong feeling about this thing is going to work this time.
ah, i forgot to tell u, ive been stalk this guy since 2009. but no more than that. i dont even save his fb pic in my lappy. that what most people do when they like a guy, dont u agree with me? i respect his privacy and his relationship. plus i dont think he would spare an attention for me. and plus i dont want to b just a number in anybody fb fren list. (my fren is 150++, his 1500++)
this feeling is not about sex, or money, or look or what ever.
this feeling is more like future.
can u feel future? if u do, then u would know how i feel.
urgh, i know his story. his ex (or is it?). ah, they two make a very good couple. i cant even match them or him.
but i do like this guy a lot.
or do i? or is it just a feeling, that must have gone tomorrow morning when i wake up?
i dont know. i just feel like i need his love right now.
im sorry, S.
i like Y better than i like u.
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