Complexity pt. 1

hi again. i didnt go to bed yet, as i know, its hard for me later on to get to sleep when i wake up in the middle of the night. so i decided to write some more on my blog.

yesterday, i received his num. everything was fine. but today, he didnt reply any of my text yet. to date, ive already sent 3 unreply text to him. one was last night before i go to sleep, because he promised me to text me too before he go to sleep, which he did not. 2nd was this morning. and the third one was before i went into the gua tempurung.

i think he must b very bz. last night he told me that he was so tired that he dont think he can finish his job. i felt hopeless cuz i can do nothing to help him. i try to say some funny word. i told him that i can sing a song to him, so that the rain will come down tonight to accompany his sleeping. he was fine with it. he think its kinda cute n funny too. im glad to hear that. not that i want to b cute or what so ever, i m just trying my best to comfort him.

i hope i will get a reply from him today. i dont want to bug him. but at the same time, i want him to know that i cannot stop thinking of him. i dont want to b childish too, that i keep on texting him n being all emotional. i want to talk to him so badly. i do not dare to call him yet, but i seriously wanting to know what he is up to now? is he doing good? have he taken his dinner? ahhh... im so miserably hopeless guy. huhu

i promise my self that i wont text him any more today. i seriously want to b more matured in handling this matter. or should i just saying hi n asking how he is doing today? urghh help me!

i think i m repeating myself as hell now. thats how complex how i feel right now.

what should i do?

hurm..... ( T _ T )




i wish i will have this moment in near future.

this is sickly sweet.

of course the long hair one is me!